sigh

so..I'm now just trying to figure out how to make it through my senior year of high school..I have plenty of job opportunitys..(u no, forensic science, massage therapy, porn stars, exotic dancer, caretaker)

I hate life

nothing wants to go my way....parents are getting a divorce...(YAY NOT)

to catch up

well...not only did my bf cheat twice, but four times....one grl was on his bday back in our first year...she gave him head bc i wouldnt (i wasnt feeling well that day) the 2nd one was the affair...the 3rd was this bitch...the 4th was just in nov....a russian scam..i still laugh at him...i forgive him, but it hurts....god...does it hurt...his son calls me nikki-mom and bf's cousin's son is starting to like me like a mom....his mom doesn't want him, just wants the child support he brings...its cruel.........life's a bitch.....

to tell you all

Well, Travis and I have been back together. Well, I've offically forgave him as signal by my rose ring. Well, I hope that life treats my 'readers' well. I still live with my gram and work at walmart. Its nice there. I like it. I can hide anything there. I can b myself. chats l8r

All the catching up to do

Let's see since I last blogged, I have been kicked out of my aunt's house, found out that not only did my bf cheat twice but he told the one girl he loved her, and I have to deal with all the emotional aftermath. My only question rite now is why can't I have a faithful guy? Everytime I date someone they cheat on me because I don't give them wut they want. Why can't I just be their only. I'm so hurt that I told him about it and he broke up with me. Now he wants me back, but I told him he has earn it back. My heart is shattered...if only someone out there would contact me and help me through this...yes my 'loving' friends could, but I'm still hurting. they will nvr know the full story.

If anyone wonders where I am living now it is with my grandmother and my mother. my life is hell. sure i may seem to have it all but really those that have it worse seem like damn royality to me rite now. i know i'm being spoiled rite now and i'm sorry , but my heart is bleeding. if you think you have advice email me at lady_kagome215@yahoo.com


thanks brokenhearted

update for june 4th

Travis and I are trying work things out. We have fought off and on, but its just the normal stuff really....he's starting to realize the hurt he inflicts on me by not giving up girls in general.......i just tore into him sat. and sun. night and so I hope he finally gets the message.

up dating

well the cheating thing wasn't exactly the truest thing in the world. he was mad at me and lied to get me to break up with him, but I didn't...I forgave him and took him by surprise....gosh

well the new things now

After the whole Penn skates thing....things changed.....they was high tensions between travis and me...I felt he was starting to use me as someone to have until someone new came along. We went to prom and stayed at a hotel that night.....We had some FUN until about four in the morning. then we slept til six, went to my aunt and slept til nine when he went home...I passed out til 3:30 pm..........well, Travis and I talked Sunday night and he confessed he was going to break up with me soon...but i changed his mind in the hotel where i confessed to him everything i felt....without specifics....i told him i loved him no matter how much he hurt me...its different now...we are closer and more connected since then tomorrow is our one year anniverisity